life is hard

I suck in my mother languages, and it only bother me soooooo much. I wish it was not so hard. But it not the only thing that bother me.
i have some problem at home for the moment, but that is a secret stuff that I not gonna tell anyone... my mom did tell me a bad news yesterday before I did go to bed, and I not have the time to think about it... I try my hardest to not think about it too,i don't really wanna think about it. It did came as a surprise to me. I did know about something was wrong and I did KNOW it was so bad. I will try my hardest to show my little sisters and little brother that I am strong, and help them. I will not cry in front of them. that has I promise myself.